Saturday, 30 August 2014

Comfort from heaven

Like a warm blanket on a cold morning
Is comfort from heaven
Sent through those around
The grieving soul
Their words, their deeds
Speak the Father's heart
Which sees and knows all
Gratitude for lives
Now departed here
Being in a place of shadow
Grief overtaken and making sad
The spirit down
Questions asked with no answer coming
Sense of loss and despondency
Until the healing comes
From heaven, like a warm blanket

Thursday, 28 August 2014

Devastating psychological effects in our society

I write these opinions which have been drawn from observing people, life and myself. Some are ideas that I have mulled over for many years, and share now. My long standing ideas have been brought to the fore because of the recent outbreak of Ebola in Nigeria. 

Apart from the obvious devastating effects of the Ebola virus on humankind, I wonder if there is an unseen upsurge in anxiety issues expressed in OCD ( Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). This may become a problem for these individuals in the long term. Everything we must do to protect ourselves and contain this deadly virus may corroborate existing deep rooted feelings of anxiety. Perhaps we may have to look at strategies to provide psychological support especially, for people dealing with this sometimes debilitating mental health state.


As I watched the news and read about the Ebola virus and it's deadly effects, I also thought about emotional and psychological traumas that may be up scaled as well. I think this not  just to the families of victims, but the fact that a psyche of fear on new levels has been unleashed into our society. Shouldn't we look at psychological support in our communities in the same way flu shots are recommended in certain seasons , and also anti histamines in hay fever season. In Nigeria, we already live with daily uncertainty with sporadic power and water supply, Boko Haram bombings, kidnaping and related crimes, armed robbery, stress inducing traffic congestion, corruption and inequity. The upshot of this list of pressures is that people react in various ways to protect themselves, and to bring comforting solutions to the deep rooted feelings of fear that this high octane environment generates. 

The attendant 'unseen' mental health issues can become compounded because they are not acknowledged, and therefore not recognised. It is particularly difficult to unearth the root cause of these stresses and traumas in Nigerian Christiandom, because we have popular 'Christianese' parlance that masks what is happening. While I am a big advocate of ' faking it until you make it' , I still think there should be room for the mental space required to take a hard look at how people are feeling and acknowledging what is actually going on. A friend who was suffering from a blinding migraine declared ' ori'nfo ota mi' which literally means ' my enemy has a headache' in Yoruba . Similar 'Naija Christianese'  brought about a bizzare situation in which a subordinate calls and says ' sorry I won't be at work today because I am strong'. What would be wrong with saying ' I am down with malaria and I am believing God for healing, I am on malaria therapy, and I pray that it works as it is designed to'. What would be wrong with that?

There is so much stigma attached to the idea of mental health problems in our culture, and this stigmatisation further compounds whatever problems an individual may have. When anyone declares they want to get married, the traditional thing is to ' go and find out about the family' , which is a euphemism for 'check if there is madness in the family'. The truth is, every family has someone who has one mental health challenge or other, the question is; to what degree.
There is almost no other ailment affecting mankind that is rampantly left untreated like mental illness.
I often think of mental health issues as a haemorrhaging of a healthy human being. If any individual was heamouraging from a wound, the natural reaction would be to rush them to get treatment and stop the bleeding. There would be no negative attention attached to that. However, mental illness is not treated with the same seriousness or immediacy. It is a serious issue in which the individual's essence is actually being eroded until they are incapacitated by the parts of themselves that have now become distorted, just like one would be incapacitated with reduced blood content from a haemorrhaging wound. The remnant person with untreated mental illness is a shadow of what they could be, and inter connections and bonds with others may become strained or difficult, or even cut off. To me, a psychological trauma can be a transient episode or event which can lead to mental illness if not addressed appropriately.

Everyone has experienced a cold or a cough, or some other common ailment like a headache at sometime in their lives. We accept that these are part of our lives and take cold remedies, cough mixtures and analgesics accordingly. Unfortunately, the same treatment is not given to mental illness or psychological trauma which ails every individual in some measure at some point in their lives. Some people get help and overcome it, while some others find ways through their belief system for example to combat it, a small percentage seek professional help. Then there are those who do not even know that they have a small touch of mental illness, which may start out mild, but left untreated, could become chronic, and ultimately lead to other problems. Sometimes, there is no obvious ill effect of this challenge, but I wager something is lying dormant in the deepest recesses of the mind. There are so many walking wounded! The results of hidden psychological traumas are thus played out in behaviours in which people 'act up' or display attitudes that profoundly upset others, especially their nearest and dearest. People carry on suffering in silence, and a litany of broken relationships, dreams and aspirations result.
Perhaps someone will develop a mental health check app, just like a blood pressure check device.

For me, my medicine against anxiety has been a combination of ;
-Recognition of my own attitudes
-Recognition of triggers
-Support from family and friends
-Dependence on the word of God.

In fact, I believe my support network have been enabled by God himself to deliver aspects of healing exactly as I need them. God works through people and circumstances around us to deliver His heart to His children. The bible is replete with phrases with words like 'do not be afraid' and ' do not be anxious' . I researched this and there are various claims about the number of times these phrases and related ones occur. There is a popular message making its rounds in social media which says 365 times; as in one for each day of the year. There are all sorts of statements which just point to the fact that it is a repeated theme.
  The important thing to note is that our creator knew how his creation would respond to life's pressures, and how those trigger inherent behaviours He himself sent us to this earth carrying. I have come to realise that the potent mix of life's pressures and my inherent attitudes and behaviours are meant to create a hunger to depend on God. It is a constant battle to keep coming back to the Father for strength, comfort, for healing, to be taught, or rebuked, and ultimately to calm my spirit down and embrace whatever directions He will have me obey. I believe emotions are God given , not just for self expression, but as a warning system for mental health. 

So my prayer today is for everyone suffering whether mildly, or acutely from anxiety or depression or mental health challenges triggered by fear of any kind. That they will first of all acknowledge that all is not well, that they will recognise their triggers, that they will become so self aware that their underlying psychological attitudes are revealed. I pray that if need be, they will immediately get professional help. I pray Romans 12:2 becomes a living reality. 

I also pray for those who have sudden traumatic events thrust on them, like those in war torn areas and recently , the families of Ebola victims. I pray for grace to endure this very difficult time. 
Amen

Thursday, 21 August 2014

Tributes for Dr. Ameyo Adadevoh- Nigeria's heroine of our time



I give God praise and thanks for Ameyo. Ameyo was pint-sized but had a huge heart. Her bubbly, irrepressible personality was larger than life. The dimples, the big laughter and the rapid fire speech brought a lot of levity and hilarity to our medical school days. Ameyo was that rare friend that for 40 years, regardless of the miles that separated us and the sometimes infrequent contact, there wasn't a time I called with a need that she could meet that she didn't help out and give it her all. Her huge heart, leadership and commitment to her profession was reflected in her handling of the index Ebola case and may have saved millions of lives, not just in Nigeria but throughout the world. When thoughts of having lost her threaten to overwhelm, I focus on the indisputable fact that her life counted and made a difference for an untold number of people. I hope that it also brings some comfort to her family, friends and colleagues. My prayer is that her actions and her death will make for lasting change in the health system and her sacrifice will bring out the very best that is in all of us. 

There are some things we will never get answers for on this side of eternity.....I will miss you dreadfully, dear friend.

Toju Chike- Obi


Oh Lord our God how excellent is Your Name in all the earth. With eyes full of tears for the loss of one I never got to know personally,  I am grateful to you for the privilege of knowing of Dr Adadevoh and for her selfless life to be an inspiration to me and to us all. We are also comforted that she is in peace everlasting with You for ever. I look forward to the time we would meet. RIP. Amen
Lola Sijuwade


May her soul rest in peace and may the good Lord comfort all especially her family and friends and colleagues IJMN
Mimi Morohundiya

We thank God for the life of Ameyo. We thank the Lord for the spirit of excellence she showed in being instrumental in curtailing the spread of the disease. I thank God for the gift of knowing her as a wonderful doctor and person. May God welcome her into His bosom and marvelous light. Rest in peace Ameyo.
Dupe Irele

In all situations we are called to give thanks so we must thank God for Ameyo's life. She was my classmate in both my primary and secondary schools and I have therefore known her for nearly fifty years. She was so clever in school, always on top of her class. Smart, witty and always with a smile. We gave her many nicknames as she was always ready to play with anyone, joke with anyone and in general her company was always a lot of fun. We lost touch after secondary school but in recent years I started seeing her once in a while and she remained as cheerful as ever. Her reputation was great and her patients always spoke highly of her. It was gratifying to see that she had bought her innate empathy and optimism to bear in her profession. She has done her bit which is why we are called to do. She touched lives and ultimately gave her own life. She is a role model and a heroine of our times. Most of all she knew and loved The Lord. May she rest in peace.
Folasade Adefisayo

Very sad indeed. RIP. May God comfort her family and loved ones and bring them peace, amen.
Morenike Adebusuyi

May Ameyo's legacy and memory be blessed. Like a lamb led to the slaughter she laid down her life. A consummate professional to the end. surely heaven stood up to welcome her. may God comfort her family and all who knew and loved her. Amen
Abby Olufeyimi

Ameyo fought a good fight and laid down her life that many may live. Heaven WON!
Alero Ayida Otobo

Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one's life for a friend. Goodbye Dr Adadevoh. An honourable soldier struck down in the line of duty.
Minjiba Cookey


Felt so sad about Dr. Adadevoh though I didn't know her. Scriptural parallels...the sacrifice of one saved many.....
But God knows best.. Who knows maybe this was her own for such a time as this , and if I perish I perish.
Taba Peterside


A great loss to Nigeria and to the health sector. Dr Adadevoh was a couple of years my senior in school and her sis Ama my classmate. When my dearest dad suddenly fell ill and was admitted in first consultant she was one of the last people with him when he drew his last breath. She then had the unenviable job of breaking the news to us which she did so well and with great compassion and really helped at the initial stage . Passionate and caring till the end. She would have been received with great fanfare In heaven !
 

Bolaji Osime 


Wednesday, 20 August 2014

AN ILLUSTRIOUS FAMILY OF NIGERIAN HEROES



The Ebola Virus Disease (EVD) struck at the heart of Nigeria, when Dr. Ameyo Stella Adadevoh, a consultant physician, and member of the illustrious Kwaku Adadevoh/Herbert Macaulay/Bishop Samuel Ajayi Crowder lineage succumbed to the scourge of the disease.
Dr. Adadevoh contracted the virus from the Liberian, Mr. Patrick Sawyer, who imported the disease into Nigeria.
Sources close to Dr. Adadevoh, 58, said she succumbed to the disease yesterday evening, having been in a coma for some days.
Dr. Adadevoh, who is survived by one son, had led the medical team at First Consultants Medical Centre, a Lagos-based hospital, which treated Sawyer on his arrival in Lagos.
As the head of operations at First Consultants, Dr. Adadevoh was praised for being the first to detect that Sawyer, who was admitted at First Consultants for five days before his death, was not being truthful when he denied that he was infected with the Ebola virus.
After he had tested negative for malaria and other diseases, she was said to have ordered that his blood be tested for Ebola. It was the positive result of the test that enabled the hospital to contact the Lagos State health authorities about the first Ebola patient in the country.
Her death brings to five, including the index case Sawyer, the total number of persons who have succumbed to the scourge of the disease in Nigeria.
Among those who have passed on, Dr. Adedavoh is the first doctor and the fourth Nigerian to have died from the virus. Others who died before her comprised two nurses and the ECOWAS protocol officer, Jatto Abdulqudir, who picked up an already infected Sawyer from the Murtala Muhammad International Airport (MMIA), Lagos.
However, five others who contracted the disease from Sawyer have been discharged while two others remain in the isolation ward at the Infectious Disease Hospital, Yaba, Lagos.
Prior to Dr. Adadevoh's death, her family and colleagues had held a press briefing in Lagos appealing to the US government to intervene to keep her from dying.
They felt that the medical care she was getting in the isolation ward was insufficient and had called on the US government to send the ZMapp trial drug to save her life.
Dr. Adadevoh comes from an illustrious family of physicians, politicians, statesmen and clerics.
Her father, the late Dr. Babatunde Kwaku Adadevoh, was a renowned Harvard University-trained physician and former vice-chancellor of the University of Lagos, while her grandmother was the daughter of Sir Herbert Samuel Macaulay, a foremost politician and founder of Nigerian nationalism in the early 1940s.
Macaulay himself was the grandson of Bishop Samuel Ajayi Crowther, who was ordained the first African Bishop of the Anglican Church in Nigeria in 1864, making Dr. Ameyo Adadevoh, his great-great-great-grand daughter.
The Adadevoh family can trace their roots to the Creoles in Sierra Leone, Ghana and South-west Nigeria.

That we may not forget - Stella Adadevoh and Justina EjelonuYNaija l The Internet Newspaper for Young Nigerians

This is a beautiful article which a friend sent to me, which I am posting a link to for others to read.
Read on:
http://ynaija.com/site/may-forget-stella-adadevoh-justina-ejelonu/ 

I welcome tributes to this great heroine of our nation on this blog


Bright is the light of Ameyo's life


Bright is the light of Ameyo's life
We give God glory
For the beauty of her legacy
She has walked the path
Our Saviour did
Saving countless lives
Laying down her own
We seek comfort
We are cut at heart
We are confused and sad
And so Ameyo has finished her race
I am so grateful to have known her
To have been the recipient of her care
Boldly she stood for what is right
An angel of light assigned to Nigeria
A demonstration of the Father's might




Sunday, 17 August 2014

Sword of the spirit prayers for Dr. Adadevoh & others


(1) Ephesians 6:10-17 | NIV

10 ...... we are standing strong in you Lord and in your mighty power. 11 We put on the full armor of God today,  we take our stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore we put on the full armor of God, so that as this day of evil Ebola has come, we are able to stand our ground, and after we have done everything, to stand. 14 We stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around our waist,
( the truth is that at the name of Jesus Ebola shall bow)
with the breastplate of righteousness in place,
( we are the righteousness of Christ Jesus in God)
15 and with our feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, we take up the shield of faith, with which we can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one.
( by faith we declare that Dr Ameyo Adadevoh and all those in quarantine are saved from this deadly pestilence)
17 We take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
( because of our confidence in our God and our salvation in Christ Jesus, we use these words to pray as a sword. We cut down and totally route the enemy with these powerful words of God, knowing that they will not return void but accomplish that for which they have been spoken)
Amen


(2)1 Corinthians 15:58 | NIV

58 Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, we stand firm. We shall not let anything move us. We give ourselves fully to this work of The Lord;( to stand in the gap and pray) because we know that our labor in the Lord is not in vain.

Amen

(3)Psalms 91:1-16 | NIV

911 We who are standing in the gap dwell in the shelter of the Most High and we declare rest in the shadow of the Almighty for all Ebola victims . We say " Lord you are our refuge and our fortress, our God, in whom we trust." 3 Surely The Lord will save Dr Ameyo Adadevoh and others from the fowler's snare and from the deadly Ebola pestilence.4 He will cover them with his feathers,and under his wings they will find refuge;his faithfulness will be their shield and rampart.5 ( as The Lord strengthens them and their families, and banishes fear in their hearts) They will not fear the terror of night,nor the arrow that flies by day,6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,nor the plague that destroys at midday.7

Our Father, Lord, healer and great provider, command your angels concerning these for whom we pray and guard them in all their ways;12 lift them up in your hands Lord ,so that they will not strike ther feet against a stone( by no means come to any harm) 13 though they face the ravaging effects of this deadly virus, it will be as though they have tread on the lion and the cobra; that they will trample the great lion and the serpent. BUT 14 "Because he loves me," says the Lord, "I will rescue him;I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;I will be with him in trouble,I will deliver him and honor him.16 With long life I will satisfy him.

With long life The Lord will satisfy Ameyo Adadevoh and others in Jesus mighty name.

Tuesday, 12 August 2014

MM1 blues- Arrival in Naija July 2014

Our chaotic exit out of MM1 ( Muritala Mohammed Airport, Lagos, Nigeria) immediately erased every stored notion of rest and calm that was acquired on our trip away. Being thrown together with our compatriots; NigerIans , male, female and children of all shapes and sizes and from a variety of ethnic groups, is a feat not meant for the feint hearted. Everyone was talking/shouting at the top of their lungs. Some were complaining and some were giving instructions, while some were patently irritated by having run away trolleys bump them in the ankles and calves.
A man in a luminous grey suit, which was so bright and reflective that it could pass as silver had on a chocolate coloured polo t shirt, and the shade of brown of his shoes were almost exactly the same shade. He had bold tribal marks on his cheeks and proffered his unsolicited opinions on how things could have been better organised. I could almost see sparks flying off his metallic suit, that is how much he churned out his irritation into the atmosphere.

We were just grateful that it was not raining because the airport management of MM1 are plastic, waterproof people from another galaxy, so they cannot see any reason to get passengers to their cars via covered walkways. We were just thrust into the open and more or less left to fend for ourselves in order to reach the buses provided to ferry us to the car park!
Had it been raining, I shudder to think how things would have gone. It had rained earlier in the day, and this accounted for the whipped chocolate cream that I had to step into. I acquired a muddy hem on my maxi dress like a tribal right of passage. There was just no way of hoisting the garment and manoeuvring three different kinds of hand luggage through the teeming crowd at the same time.
Interspersed in the melee were touts holding up wads of crisp one thousand Naira notes, offering to sell foreign exchange or just break down notes into smaller denominations. They had the same effect as blue bottle flies buzzing around my ears. My first instinct was to reach for a fly swatter. Both official and 'kabu-kabu' drivers bent on attracting passengers to hire their vehicles tried to intercept our egress by running alongside or stepping in front of us to offer their servIces. If the money changers were flies, these were annoying pests of another kind which I can't quite find the adequate description for.

Soon, it was all over and we were in our car, and speedily being transported home. My head was reeling, I was utterly exhausted and I haven't been more pleased to cross the threshold into my home in a long time. For now, all is well and I can quickly forget the MM1 experience. That is; until the next time I travel out and return. 

But when will this avoidable chaos end?




Ebola prayer

Saturday, 9 August 2014

2 Timothy 3:16-17 OBEDIENCE & THE GOD BREATHED WORD


All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work. 

In order to serve my purpose on earth, I must be equipped to do it. 
In order to be equipped I must obey the word of God.
Obeying the God breathed word takes me to a place where I am taught. 
My teaching includes:
-rebuking bad behaviour
-correcting wrong decisions 

....so that I am empowered to do good works full on.

This scripture inspired me to draw the image below. In my mind I saw a 'pressure can' , heated by the God breathed word of God. The elements are heated and stressed (our life's struggles) and ultimately purified. The emerging strong element is the smiley face, all set up and empowered to do good works.


Prayer: May you be empowered by the word to do good works as you embrace and learn from your training, teaching and rebukes. No matter what your challenges are, I pray that you push through believing in your heart that the process is God ordained for your training and refinement. More grace to you!
Amen



Sunday, 20 July 2014

Gratitude , Grace , Faith

I kicked off celebratIons for my birthday by being  in a place of deep gratitude for another year of life, by his grace. I was reflecting on so many things, mostly the power of grace that I have been privileged to receive. In my reflections I read three pieces of writing from my journals which centred on grace and gratitude. They were written at different times over the last year and a half, and come together for me now as one whole thing that I embrace.





01 January 2013
SAVED BY HIS GRACE
Saved by His grace
Steeped in His love
My only answer
Is that its from heaven above
Grateful beyond measure
For innumerable gifts
For privileges
Seen and unseen
What an amazing God!
What a Saviour!
I bend low my knee
My heart cries out
Why me! Why me!
And he answers...
Because I love you
Because I honour my word
Because I want you to be
An example of this love
Endless and free
From eternity to eternity
I have loved mankind
Be a temple for me
Be the bible people see
Be the catalyst for someone to take courage
Be bold, be different
Showcase my creativity
Let me be me



GRATEFUL IN LAGOS 29 August 2013

G - Gratitude
R - Reverence
A - Adoration
T - Thanksgiving
E - Eternal glory
F - Fellowship
U - Unending love
L - Loyalty

I am grateful Lord, because of who you are, your patience and love for me. I am grateful for the truth you have revealed to me about myself, and my behaviour that  makes me struggle within sometimes. I am sorry for my stubbornness , for my rebellion and going my own way, and doing things in my own strength.
Forgive me Lord. Have mercy on me for I am a very silly girl at times.

This is why I am so grateful, because you always rescue me, and I am so happy that there is room for forgiveness from you. That there is fullness of joy in your presence.  
Help me Lord to forgive myself.
Be glorified in my life Lord. I am grateful for my life, and what you are doing in it, and what you will have me do.
I bless your name and reverence you. In Jesus mighty name.  

Amen!   



SAVED BY GRACE 12/07/2014

Every human being has faults that are inherent that can be magnified or subdued by the environment in which they grow up and have been nurtured. We are each socialised in peculiar ways triggered by the innate forces within until we find ourselves in a new environment with different forces, reach an age of reason, or come to realisations. Realisations and recognition are the bedrock of self awareness. There are two kinds of self awareness- 
one which is completely in the natural-governed by self will
and 
another which is in the spiritual-governed by God's will. 
They can sometimes be in conflict because our life's experience may not corroborate our Christ given identity, and therefore how God sees us. This is where FAITH comes in.

Standing on our belief system is a powerful tool which keeps us focussed on where we are going and centred on the truth about who we are in God's eyes. To ignore this truth is to diminish GRACE. We have free access to this grace through the word of God which is available for us to eat of.

Yes I am flawed. Yes I have made mistakes and taken decisions that I know are wrong. Yes I have said a word that has wounded someone. Yes I have failed to take many opportunities that came my way. However, I know that , I know that,  I know that my spirit man must be in the driving seat.

I am grateful for grace. I am grateful that I always have new choices. That I am transformed by the renewal of my mind. It is grace that has made that provision for me. I must keep that uppermost in my mind. My mind is the most powerful weapon with which I can hold on to the truth in His word regardless of times, seasons, circumstances or what others say about me. In Christ, I am a work in progress, but also, I am:
-More than a conqueror
- Able to do all things through Christ who strengthens me
-able to move out of darkness into His marvellous light.

Saturday, 5 July 2014

FAITH AND GOD'S SOVEREIGNTY


Luke 18:1 (NIV)
1Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.


Luke 18:6-8 (NIV)
6And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off ? 8I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"




These two statements say to me that God's willingness to answer prayer is not what the question is, but how I keep faith. Here it says I will get justice and 'quickly'. How do I reconcile the statement of 'quickly' with many issues that have not been answered yet, such as the return of the Chibok girls? It took nearly 25 years of suffering before I received healing? How 'quick' are those??

With the Chibok girls, I think perhaps God is using the situation to 'find occasion' against Boko Haram, just like he did with Samson and the Philistines and Pharaoh and the Children of Israel. Concerning my healing, if I pause a minute and look at what I have learnt through that adversity, the quantum of growth of my faith, and the depth of my relationship with God, I view those years with gratitude. God really did do something new in me , in and through those difficult times.

My conclusions:
It is all about my perspective, thoughts behaviours and belief system on the one hand and the sovereignty and timing of God on the other. Though I find it difficult to understand within the limits of my human view point, I can definitely 'allow' what God is saying to come through.

However, once I take a deeper look at the verse 6, I begin to see that my faith position is important in the equation.
What I hear loud and clear is that :
1) I must keep faith
2) God hears and sees my petitions and my plight
3) He says He will answer quickly
4) The timing of the answer is part of a wider picture which only God has control over.
5) God's sovereignty means that what is happening in my life is not about what is comfortable for me, but completely about how my faith shapes my response to life's experiences .  Also, how my faith impacts my willingness to serve God, and my submission to His sovereignty.

All easier said than done eh? So this is a reminder to myself. 
I hope this speaks to someone too.

May your faith be built up to the measure of the power of our God, which is available to you in Christ Jesus. Amen.


Wednesday, 11 June 2014

Thoughts on Exodus 5:22 Moses upset with God

22Moses returned to the Lord and said, "Why, Lord, why have you brought trouble on this people? Is this why you sent me? 23Ever since I went to Pharaoh to speak in your name, he has brought trouble on this people, and you have not rescued your people at all.
Exodus 5:22 (NIV)


Moses was moved by compassion for the suffering of his people, he knew very well that God had plans to rescue them, and he was the agent/ leader to do this.
Prayer:
Father, Lord, thank you for Moses's strength in you, and the clear evidence of how close his walk was with you. He literally demanded from you what you had promised...I am scared to think that he accused you of being unfaithful when he said 'you have not rescued your people at all.' I believe that statement came from having confidence in who he was in you, and a deep rooted belief that you were able to do what you said you would do. It sounds like he was not doubting your ability per se, but was wondering what your motive was for not performing speedily. I am grateful for what I also observe concerning Moses' conscience; it must have been clear towards you. Help me to choose the thoughts and actions that auger well for a right standing with you. Thank you for your grace and for Jesus who gives me direct  access to God now.
Amen

Saturday, 7 June 2014

YOU TOO MAY BE A GIANT SLAYER IN DISGUISE

Jealous Saul-triumphant David 1Sam 16-18


The bible's account of the relationship between Saul and David, is rife with Saul's jealousy towards the young, handsome, harp playing, spirit filled warrior and David's determination to honour God rather than reciprocate Saul's several attempts to murder young David.
It is notable that David, prior to his being anointed the next king of Israel, appeared to be a nobody; inconsequential. The baby of the family- the last born who was at best an errand boy for his older brothers and he tended sheep. In short, he was in a humble/lowly estate while his older brothers who were respected and  recognised by the King and the society were warriors and officers in Saul's army. They had the macho job, certainly in national security terms, their job carried more weight than David's.
What at all was that boy up to?...
Playing harps and following goats and sheep around!

It transpires that the brothers too were jealous of David. A feeling that deepened from both David's brothers' heart , and the king's. It all started after the pip squeak of a lad killed Goliath with one of the most unconventional battle weapons ever..... In fact ,Saul had put his armour on him, but the young lad asked to take it off and rather chose to wear his normal shepherd clothes . All he took with him by way of weaponry was a sling shot and five smooth pebbles.   
Na wao!
OMG! 
The boy killed the giant and took his head to Saul!  
Self note:
1) In what ways am I hindering my victory over something because I have taken on a battle strategy that is a wrong fit for me. I am chosen by God to win battles for him in His strength and possibly using the uniqueness of my skill sets, regardless of whether or not these are recognised by others. 
2) A key thing to note, is that God was with David but had left Saul.

3) All their feelings of jealousy, the insults and derision levelled against David  by the brothers and even the attempt on David's life by  the king Saul came to nothing. Imagine! Saul throwing a spear at David twice, with the pre-meditated motive of pinning him to the wall!!
Haba! What was David's offence?
Nothing.
Saul was simply jealous and he was unable to keep his feelings in check. But the bible says the 'evil spirit' that came over Saul was from God.

This I don't understand.
Why would God do this?
When I think of this, I feel sorry for Saul, because I know that even if he wished it, he could not possibly win against a spirit that God had put in him.

4) I am not a lawyer but this 'evil spirit from God' drove Saul to do all sorts of things that could be evidence of criminal intent:
-Malice a fore thought
-Attempted murder
-Stalking David thereby constituting himself into a public nuisance
-Consumed with the unlawful motive to cause grievous bodily harm to David

5) So, Saul was 'set up' by his maker. How could he have done anything to turn this tide? Did he have a choice to do different?
Whatever the answers to my questions, I can learn from Saul how poisonous jealousy can be, and how it will literally drive you insane, and you could possibly break the law too, if left unchecked.

6)....And yes , the close cousin of jealousy is resentment. I must get rid of that and all its other relatives. 
-anger
-strife
-'pull-him-downism'
-'she/ he is such a goody-two-shoes isms'
We must get rid them and throw them away, far, far from our normal living environment, just like we empty our bowels.

7) Also, here I see again God being the perfect Human resource manager in using David's hitherto unrecognised skill sets where it was least expected. David's killing of bears and lion's that had attempted to eat his sheep, was not really recognised as a skill worthy of use for national battle. Certainly not against the huge giant of a man, who's physical size alone struck fear into an entire army.
As well, David, their next king was under their very noses but they did not know!

8) We should  ask ourselves, which staff or junior worker that God has anointed for higher service have we overlooked? As God is God, he will give them the opportunity to spring up one day as He uses them to fulfil an assignment. We may be surprised, but we must not allow jealousy a shred of room.


I ask myself which part of me has The Lord planned for triumph one day, that I am unaware of ? What humble little part of me is a giant slayer in disguise? 
Perhaps you would like to think about these points and see if you too are a giant slayer in disguise? 



Friday, 23 May 2014

HEAVENLY ALGEBRA

1What then shall we say that Abraham, our forefather according to the flesh, discovered in this matter? 2If, in fact, Abraham was justified by works, he had something to boast about—but not before God. 3What does Scripture say? “Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness.”[S]4Now to the one who works, wages are not credited as a gift but as an obligation. 5However, to the one who does not work but trusts God who justifies the ungodly, their faith is credited as righteousness. 

Romans 4:1-5 (NIV)

Self notes:
It was not Abrahams works that made him righteous before God, it was his faith. In fact, I also see that Abraham's faith was evident through his works. I think of faith and works as conjoined twins.
Abraham BELIEVED God.....And ( his belief/faith) was credited to him as righteousness. From this I learn that faith is the seed capital that produces the desired bounty of righteousness. 
Righteousness is ' right standing before God'
I also learn that faith is simply believing God.
Believing God means I trust Him
Trusting Him means that:
1) I am certain of what I believe 
2) I know that I know that I know 
3) I am not swayed by times , seasons or circumstances