Burnished Gold

It is just 6am in the morning and I can see a very bright sun shining behind, and through my curtains. The colour it has given the fabric is like burnished gold. Right before my eyes, the cloth has taken  on a new quality , like shimmering gold dust. It's metallic beauty catching the light in different directions. This cloth has no such luster of its own but has taken on a certain iridescent quality from the sun.

In the same way, we are to take on the light of our Heavenly Father. The true and perfect light. We do not have it of our own, but when we are in Him, we take on   His qualities and we glint and shimmer and reflect God's glory. We display the beauty of the awesome, enigmatic power of God .  

Proverbs 4:18 

18The path of the righteous is like the morning sun,

shining ever brighter till the full light of day.

I should know better

I should be secure in your love Lord

Not need to need all these external inputs

I should know your love so keenly

I am confident of it and stand firm

I should know that your love is not external

But dwells within me via your Spirit

I should be tuned to your teachings

And your word so much that

I know that I know that I know

The full extent of your love for me

The little I know and am able to perceive

In my limited thinking and perceptions 

Humbles me totally and sometimes I am afraid

That I am just not worth it

But that is what is so unique about you Lord

That the truth is that I am not worth it

But you have loved me anyway!

I should know better!

This is why I am so grateful for your word 

Because I can renew my mind daily

I can re connect daily and be in your full truth

And know by discernment in my spirit

What is true according to you and what is not 

It is so hard to keep up, it is a constant challenge

But your love is like that, inspite of the challenges 

I can just rest , and just be, I can just relax in you

It is actually easier than it looks

I should know better

Because you are patient 

You are faithful

At the brink-Renewal

Hold your breath

Be still

And pick your steps

Gingerly, quietly

Calm your flailing arms down

Slow, slow, tread gently 

Catch heavy exhalation 

Suspend belief and thought and word

Silence

Pin drop silence

Silence so quite

It is a loud noise

Stop!

Your heart beating fast

Gasp and wait

Wait, not too fast

Wait, and wait again

You are at the brink you know

Of something new

Something is going to happen

And it is the good stuff 

No, no, no, still hold in

Keep your excitement down

Learn to contain it

Because

It will blow your mind

Lara Cookey

01 January 2017